I did it because something in me — in the brain that the arecoline acted on, in the body that the analgesia temporarily relieved — kept bringing me back.

They say: I was here.

In the limestone cave of South Sulawesi, in the years between 16,000 and 25,000 years ago, I was here.

I was human.

I wanted things.

I took what was available to satisfy those wants, even at cost.

They say: The history of human drug use begins before civilization.

Before agriculture.