The Crate in the Parking Lot
She has not lived in the same house as any of them since.
I raised them.
That sentence has been said back to me in a tone I do not deserve for about fifteen years, usually at a barbecue, usually by a man, usually with a hand on my shoulder, and I have never once found a way to respond to it that is not either false modesty or a speech.
So here is the response, at the front, and then I will get on with it.
I did not raise them alone.
My sister Ximena moved from Fresno in the December of 2010 and lived in our front room for four years and then in a duplex four blocks away for six more, and she is the reason Ines and Solveig can read.
A woman named Dorcas Pham, who lived two doors down and who was sixty-one and who I had exchanged perhaps nine sentences with before all this, took Willa three afternoons a week for two years and would not take a dollar and got extremely offended when I tried.
The girls raised each other, which is a thing people say sentimentally and which in our house was an operational reality with a written schedule on the refrigerator in Odile’s handwriting from the time she was twelve.
And a school counselor at Fremont Elementary named Barb Yee got Bea into a program in 2014 that I did not know existed and could not have paid for, and I have thanked her four times and it is not enough.
I did the job.
I am not going to be falsely humble about fifteen years of it.
But the story where one exhausted man does it by himself on grit is not true of my house and I have never met anybody it was true of.
What I did that morning was forward the text to Odile, because I did not know what else to do with it, with a message that said: your call.
100%. whatever you want.