I asked her about it, on the porch in March, in the four-hour conversation.

I said, “Why did you never tell me any of that was happening?”

And Odile said: “Because what were you going to do?”

Which is not a rhetorical question and which I have turned over about four hundred times since, because the honest answer is that in 2013 there was very little I could have done, and the true answer is that there was one thing, which was the day shift in 2013, and I ran the numbers and the numbers said no.

Then she said the rest of it, and this is the part that put me in a chair.