Which gave me a window: those photographs were taken at my house somewhere between the middle of 2022 and the February.

The engagement was announced in the January.

Christian and I were married in the October of 2021.

I sat at my sister’s kitchen table at half past one in the morning with a legal pad in front of me on which I had written, in my own handwriting, a chronology of my own marriage in the format I use for contract disputes, with a left-hand column of dates and a right-hand column of source documents.

And Renata came down for water and read it over my shoulder and said, “Cam.

What are you doing.”