A board told in the November would have moved against me.

I would have been out by the spring and the deal would have been done worse by somebody else and eleven thousand people would have had a worse outcome.

I have not found a single reason to doubt any of that.

“And I was not entitled to act on it.

“That’s the whole thing, Emmett.

That’s what it took me eighteen months to be able to say in a sentence.

I was right about what would happen and I was not entitled to decide, privately, that because they would use the information badly, they could not have it.