The Note Under the Table
They had invited us somewhere no one would see, and I had thanked them for the lovely weekend.
“What’s going on, sweetheart?” I whispered, kneeling in front of him.
His eyes were wide, and what was in them was not a child’s ordinary fear.
It was terror.
I want to be honest about the moment before that note reached my hands, because it is the part I have gone over most since.
I had spent the whole meal with a low hum of wrongness in my chest, the kind of thing a body knows before a mind will let it.
Blanca had set my mug down with a small flourish, angled so the handle met my hand.
Dario had asked twice whether I was going to drink it.
There were no cousins at the table, no neighbors, none of the audience Blanca liked to gather when she wanted a Sunday performed.
It was just the four of us, at the far end of a road with no streetlights, and some animal part of me had been counting the exits since I walked in the door.
I had told that part of me to be quiet.
I had a habit, by then, of telling it to be quiet.
That was the habit my son broke with a folded piece of paper.
Chapter 2 — What Kai Heard