I have thought about the physics of that a lot — that the entire remainder of my life turned on the fact that I was standing eighteen inches from a nightstand and he was standing four feet away, on the other side of a bed.

I had my own phone in my hand because I had been looking at a calendar four minutes earlier.

I photographed the screen.

He got to me about a second and a half later and grabbed for it, and I turned my shoulder into him, and he stopped — he did stop, I’ll say that, he has never once put a hand on me — and stood there breathing.

“Jessi.