I want to be honest about that too.

I had no analysis and no suspicion.

I had a feeling in my chest, and the feeling was about my father, and I said, “I’d rather not, it’s Dad’s,” and he said, “Of course, that’s fine,” and dropped it entirely.

Nine months later he raised it again.

Then eleven months after that.

Then, in the autumn before the fourteenth of March, twice in six weeks — and by then it had stopped being about estate planning and had become about collateral, and there was a number involved, and the number was four point two million.

I said no.