Antonia has answered none of it.

That was her decision, made alone, and the only thing I have ever said to her about it is that it is hers to make.

She said to me once, in a supermarket parking lot of all places: “The thing I can’t get past is that my mother had two children and one of them told her no.

Casper told her no when he was thirty and it cost him his whole family and he did it anyway.

“It was available.