Nineteen times, it happened while I was gone.

My therapist has taken that apart with me perhaps a dozen times and she is right every time and it does not touch it.

She points out, correctly, that my absence was not the cause; that Corinne would have found other days; that a man who never travels is not a safer man, only a smaller one.

She once said, “You are trying to solve a betrayal with a calendar.”

I know.