That was the moment, watching it alone that first time, that I stopped grieving the son I thought I had and began the harder work of accepting the son I did.

In the courtroom I did not let my face move.

I had learned to keep my face still under worse things than this.

But I want it on the record, somewhere, that keeping it still cost me more in that room than any case of my career.

Chapter 17 — Make It Look Organic

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