And she carries a thing that nobody outside her own head would ever think to blame her for, which is that on the twelfth of October she got out a phone.

She said it to me the first time we sat down properly, about a year in, in Vesta Odom’s kitchen in Longview with Vesta in the next room on purpose.

She said: “I filmed it.

I stood at a window and filmed it for sixteen seconds before I called anybody.

If I’d just run down there — I was the closest one, I was thirty feet away—”

And I said: “Nita, stop.”