Now I had it.

And having it, I found I did not want a screaming match in a bedroom.

I wanted the whole structure.

I wanted to know exactly how much of my life was load-bearing and how much was a painted set.

I have thought since about all the times I talked myself out of what I already half-knew, and I have decided to forgive myself for them.

A person does not doubt the people she loves for free; every suspicion costs something, and the currency is the marriage itself.