I think he had been carrying something else for three months by then and it had used up whatever he normally used for this.

“She’s still — she has a lot of feelings about what happened,” he said.

“With the baby.

She’s never really processed it and she doesn’t handle it well when you’re there, and I’m not defending it, I’m just telling you what it is.”

I stood in my kitchen and looked at my husband.

“Say it properly,” I said.

“Hannah—”

“No.