That last one is the one.

That is the question, and it was available, and it was free, and he had handed me an opening about four feet wide, and I stood on a pavement and let it go past.

Because — and I have had a long time on this — if I had asked him why me, he would have had to answer, and the answer would have made it about the two of us rather than about a form.

And at that point I would have had to decide something much harder than whether to fill in a document.