But then I would have had to sit on that pavement while you decided.

I would have had to watch a woman I liked work out whether an old man being lonely was a good enough reason to marry him.

However it came out, I would have had to sit through the working out.

I made it a form instead.

You are excellent with forms.

I turned it into a thing you could do rather than a thing you had to feel, and that was for me and not for you, and it was the worst thing I have ever done to anybody and I have known that since about four o’clock in the afternoon on the twelfth of December.

Four o’clock in the afternoon on the twelfth of December is about four hours after the ceremony.