So I climbed into the back of the cruiser voluntarily, calmly, the way you walk willingly into a trap you have already decided to spring from the inside.

Let them think they had me.

It would make what came next so much more complete.

There is a discipline to letting a powerful enemy believe they are winning, and I had learned it, over four years, as one of the most valuable tools in the work I did.

The natural instinct, when someone is trying to intimidate you, is to show them immediately that it will not work — to stand tall, to refuse the cruiser, to make clear from the first moment that you are not afraid and will not be pushed.

It feels like strength.