She had not been handing me a worthless scrap of cloth in the fog of her last hour.

For twelve years — no, for fifteen — she had been watching, and knowing, and quietly making certain that the one person who had treated her like a human being would be protected long after she was gone.

The pillow had not been a goodbye.

It had been a shield, and a sword, and a love letter, and she had slept on all three every night for years so that no one would ever think to look.

I sat with that letter a long time, and as I sat there the whole of the twelve years rearranged itself in front of me, like a picture turning to show a face hidden in it that you cannot unsee once you have found it.