“I’ve known,” I said, “since our son was three hours old.”

He sank down onto the stone of the driveway and put his face in his free hand.

“So everything since — ”

“Was everything I had to do,” I said, “to make sure you could never do the thing I heard you plan.”

“Meredith.

I am so sorry.”

His crying moved nothing in me.

“So am I,” I said.