Part Eleven: What My Daughter Had Been Holding

It came out over about five weeks, in pieces, mostly not to me.

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Nadia Roshan is a child psychologist in Colorado Springs who works almost exclusively with military families, which is why I picked her, and who told me at our first meeting — mine, alone, before Hannah ever went — that she would be seeing my daughter without me in the room and that I should prepare myself for that.

“You are going to want to be in there,” she said.

“You should not be in there.