Hannah was born when Rebecca was thirty-four and I was thirty-three, after four years of trying and one loss that we did not talk about for a long time.

Rebecca got sick in the spring that Hannah was three.

It was not one of the illnesses that gives you a year to prepare.

From the first appointment to the last one was eleven weeks.

She was diagnosed in April and she died in July, and I do not intend to write out the details of those eleven weeks because they belong to us and because they are not the point of this.

What is the point is this: Hannah was four years old, and she was in the house for most of it, and she does not have a coherent memory of her mother.