That is not a mistake made under stress.

That is a position.

And it had been explained to a nine-year-old, in advance, coherently enough that she could repeat it back to me in sequence on a tile floor.

Which meant it was not the first conversation.

I did not know how many there had been.

I found out over the following month, and it was worse than I thought standing in that corridor, and I did not need to know it to know what I was going to do.