And the reason that second passed — the reason I did not crack open and disappear — was not only Daniel’s steady hand.

It was that, over six months of doing hard, precise, undeniable work, I had slowly built a different voice, a truer one, my own, and in that second on the patio the two voices met.

Luke’s said you are pathetic. And mine, quiet and certain, said back: no.

I am the one who read the hard drive.

I am the most prepared person at this party.

Watch. It was the first time in nine years my own voice had won.