But this was not a single act.

It was the sudden clear sight of a foundation I had been building a family on for eight years, and finding it was sand.

You cannot un-see a foundation once you’ve seen it.

You can only decide whether to keep building on it, and I had four daughters and a son who deserved better ground than that.

Chapter 22 — Complete All Along

I lifted Leander out of the crib and held him against my heart.