At a prenatal appointment between visits, I caught myself talking mostly about Leo.

The clinician listened to what was relevant, then brought me back to the questions about my own care and the baby I was carrying.

I looked down at my hands.

“I keep thinking if I finish the other things, I can pay attention properly.”

“There will always be another thing,” she said.

“Let’s make sure you have what you need for this one.”

We reviewed the practical arrangements already being discussed: who could help Sadie when I needed to go in, how I would get to appointments, and whom I could contact with concerns.