At 104 Degrees My Baby Was Burning Up, and the Doctor Said New Mothers Panic Over Nothing. Then My Seven-Year-Old Lifted Her Teddy Bear and Asked to Tell Him What Grandma Had Really Been Doing
That is the thing about being slowly convinced you are crazy.
There is no single moment you can point to.
There is only a long, quiet erosion, and a woman at the end of it who has learned to doubt the one instrument she needs most — her own certainty that something is wrong with her child.
They had all but finished the job.
What they had not counted on was a seven-year-old who came downstairs for a glass of water, and saw, and understood more than they thought she could, and kept the evidence in her teddy bear’s overalls until she found a grown-up who would listen.
I have read since about how this is done, because I needed to understand that I had not imagined my own unraveling, and the word for it turned out to be old and precise and strangely comforting to finally have.