I did not say anything for a long time.

And then he said the last of it, and it is the sentence I would take out of this account if I were being kind to him, and I am not going to.

He said: “And when it was over I was relieved.”

“Relieved.”

“For about ten minutes on Thursday night, after.

It was over and I wasn’t going to have to do any more of it and I felt — Thea, I felt relief, and then I felt what that made me, and I have never once been able to look at it since.

“And you can’t tell your wife that.