That’s a choice.” He reached across the table.

“Can’t we start over?” For one second I saw the man on the train platform.

And then I saw my mother’s face, purple in the lamplight of a hotel room.

“No,” I said.

“There’s nothing left here to save.”

I want to be honest about that one second, because it would be easy to pretend I felt nothing looking at him across that table, and it would be a lie.

I did feel something.