To the weeks Leo was in the ICU.

Julian had not begun this after our son died.

He had begun it while our son was still alive, still fighting, still in a hospital bed with his heart failing — while I sat holding Leo’s hand and Julian sat somewhere else entirely, filling out fraudulent paperwork against my home.

That is the fact I have had the hardest time carrying, of everything I learned.

Not that my husband was a thief.

That my husband was a thief who chose the very weeks of our child’s dying as the time to steal.