I straightened the books he never read but liked to be seen owning.

I ran the cloth along the baseboards.

And I dropped the cloth.

That is the whole of it.

A dropped dust rag, a woman on her knees reaching under a desk for it, a hand closing on cedar instead of cotton.

Had I not fumbled that rag, I might have gone another eleven years.

I have thought about that since with something close to vertigo — how thin the membrane was between the life I was living and the life I was owed, how the entire difference came down to a cleaning cloth slipping out of my fingers on an ordinary Tuesday.

People believe the truth announces itself.