He had loved Julian, I realized.

In his own reserved way, he had loved him, and he was grieving too, and he was determined, for Julian’s sake, to deliver me safely across the hardest hour of my life.”

Chapter 12 — The Box

With trembling hands, I lifted the lid of the box, not knowing what I expected to find, braced for I did not know what.

Inside, arranged with a care that I would later understand had been Julian’s, lay four things.