I did not embellish the scene with the things I wished I’d said.

That was a new kind of courage for me: recording what was true, then letting it be enough.

PART 9

Derek came home shortly after midnight.

I heard the garage door and the familiar shuffle of his shoes in the hall.

For eleven years that sound had meant the end of waiting.

Now it meant I needed to be prepared.

He found me at the kitchen table with a notebook open in front of me.