A lonely man, which is more dangerous than a fool, because a lonely man will do his own convincing for you.

She barely had to lie.

She only had to be warm, and present, and patient, and let me build the rest of the fantasy myself out of my own need.

And I did.

I explained away every warning sign, because each warning sign threatened to send me back into the silence, and I would have explained away almost anything rather than return to that.

My daughter kept trying to show me the truth.