The Actor Behind the Mask
There was worry in it, the ordinary fear of any parent whose child has just been hurt.
But underneath the worry there was something else, and it took me a moment to recognize it, because I had not often been on the receiving end of it: pride.
My father had spent my whole childhood trying to teach me one thing above all others, repeating it in a hundred different forms — that my worth was not up for negotiation, that no amount of anyone else’s approval was worth purchasing with my own self-respect, that a person who will not walk away from a bad deal has no power in any deal at all.
He had said it to me about business, about friends, about boys.
And he had spent years quietly worried, I think, that it hadn’t taken — that his agreeable, accommodating daughter had heard the words but not learned the spine.
And now here I was, fourteen hours married and already out, with my safety net intact and my head high and a lawyer already on the phone, having done the exact thing he had always hoped I would be able to do if I ever needed to.