It was a familiar mattress, the same room where we’d planned vacations and argued about paint colors.

Now it felt like a stage set for a marriage I’d been absent from.

“Are you saying you want to leave me?”

“I’m saying the house stopped feeling safe.

I don’t know how to make that feeling disappear because you showed up at breakfast.”

I wanted to defend myself.

I wanted to tell her I hadn’t known.

But the reason I hadn’t known was standing in front of me.