She was, at that point, already thinking about the thing she did fourteen months later.

Not planning it — I do not believe she was planning anything in 2022.

But the machinery was in her, and the fear was in her, and she was watching a woman she loved go through a sixth year of failing and drawing the only conclusion available to her, which was: this is what happens.

Do not let this be you.

Her mother had told her, more than once, in my hearing, that she had “priced herself out of the market.”