The Route
I just drive the forty-two miles, once in a while, on a slow afternoon, the way you visit a grave or an old friend, and I look at the boxes standing empty of their old purpose at the ends of the driveways, and I remember who is behind each one.
People ask me if I miss it, and it’s the wrong question, or I don’t have a right answer to it.
I don’t miss the mail.
Nobody misses the mail.
What I had for thirty-one years was not a mail route; it was a front-row seat to ninety-some human lives, a daily standing invitation into the quiet middle of other people’s existence, an unearned and unrepeatable intimacy with a whole scattered corner of the world that trusted me, without ever discussing it, to be the one who came.
That is not a job.