Raghunathan’s input.

A parenting coordinator, a woman named Fenella Doyle, whose job for two years was to be the person the two of us spoke to instead of speaking to each other.

And an absolute prohibition, permanent, on any contact of any kind between Nell and either of her maternal grandparents, including letters, including through Antonia, with no review date.

I signed it in March.

And two years on I will say the thing that I could not have said then: Marisol Vega was right about me.