And Antonia said, in a voice with absolutely nothing in it: “Go with Dad, sweetheart.”

I picked her up.

She is a big seven and I had not carried her in about two years and she put her arms round my neck immediately.

Gerald Rask said, “Theo—”

And I said, “No.”

That is the only word I said to him.

It is the only word I have ever said to him.

I have not spoken to that man before or since, including in a federal courthouse in New Haven where we were in the same room for two and a half hours.