I did not ask a tenth question.

I want that recorded because it was the hardest thing I did that year.

I had eleven more loaded and every one of them would have felt tremendous and every one of them would have told her exactly what I was going to do next.

Instead I said, “Okay,” and I went back in and sat down on the other side of the bed.

And at 7:50 that evening, when Simone went down to the cafeteria, I walked to the nurses’ station and asked a charge nurse for a printed copy of my daughter’s record, which as a joint managing conservator with the order in my bag I was entitled to, and which took eleven minutes.