“You didn’t destroy anything, Mom,” I said.

“He did this.

All of it, himself.” And as I said it, I understood how many years I had spent doing the opposite — making his excuses for him, translating his cruelty into something I could live beside.

When he was controlling, I’d told myself he was stressed.

When he was cold to my mother, I’d told myself he needed space.

When he burned through our money, I’d told myself he’d earned it.