Twenty-two years of marriage.

A man who had lent her brother money three times — four thousand in 2011, two thousand five hundred in 2016, and six thousand in 2019 that was never repaid and that I wrote off in my own head in about a week and never mentioned again.

Three times.

I said yes three times without hesitating.

And in the January of 2024 she did not ask.

I have four answers and I do not fully believe any of them and I have stopped expecting to.