I had built a company, raised a daughter, filled every hour — and then the person I had done all of it alongside was gone, and the hours were still there, empty, echoing.

A man in that condition is not thinking clearly, whatever he tells himself.

He is in pain, and he is ashamed of the pain, because the world expects a widower to grieve with dignity and then quietly disappear, and he is desperate — though he would never use that word — for someone to make the silence in the house stop.

That is the man Vivienne found when she started bringing me coffee.

Not a fool, exactly.